Feels like fuck?

These few days I feel like fuck. I know fuck is a very generalised beautiful and versatile word. If you noe me, then you will noe what fuck means in my fucking dictionary. So why do I feel like fuck?

Actually theres nothing new. Ive always feel like fuck. In my blog Ive always described my days as fucked up or my situation is so fucked. But nowadays, I feel more fucked up than before. I lose my focus. I lose my sense of direction. I lose my drive. With these, Im losing myself. I dunno what Ive become. Its like the black substance from some planet came to me and cover me in the substance and making me not myself. Its making me venom and not spiderman.Omg, thats so not original analogy. But it's true lah. Behind this person is just an alter ego that is potrayed in school. Worse, now the alter ego has its own alter ego. Which means Ive become more and more seperated from my usual self, which is very important to me since it is everything that is me now is built up since I was a child. Now that this alter ego is taking over my other alter ego, Im scared my original self will never be the same again.

Damn, enough of crap, I haven done any homework today. Shitzor! Slack and slack. See, how not to feel like fuck? And the chess sessions which last until Saturday also adds to the fuck goodness. =_=Haiz.. chess, youre adding up to my misery.

RIght now, the only chess that Im interested in is of the female anatomy..Wahahaha..kk,, so crude..