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Today was the first common test paper. I was nervous and confident at the same time. Almost wanted to break down and cry in the arms of LPS caused by the anxiety. But i was strong. It was pharmacology, the module that I had been concentrating on more compared to the other modules.

I opened the question paper. It was a godsend. It looked terribly easy to me. I felt so happy. Then tragedy strucked. I got all the medications wrong, which means every little word that I was confidently writing were wrong. And so now Im dreading every moment of the time passed. At best I guess I couldonly just pass, when a while ago I thought I could ace it.

I know that in life we lose some and we win some. And I dont mind losing sometimes. But for me losing is like a norm nowadays. I cant reap what I sow. I dont see rainbows at the end of a storm.

For now I guess expecting the least of everything is the way to go for me.