Negative feelings

I dunno why lately Ive been feeling so negative. That everything works against me. You noe that happens when you cant blog about something happy. The way I see my life, its getting worse. I noe things change and we all change. Theres no doubt about it. But to expect shit like right now is not something that I foresee last time. Doing bad things, having bad lifestyle, bad thoughts, bad habits. All these are killing me inside. Cuz I noe its not me. I miss my gud old self. My nerdy kancheong studious self who doesnt give a shit about what are against my principles. But now, I changed for the worse. I still look nerdy, but Ive become less of myself last time. Sometimes simple things can really make you happy. I dunno, I guess as u age things get more complicated. Like right now. Maybe its just my attitude that I look things negatively now. But I cant help it thinking what will change if I did something different in the past or recently. It could have been better. Things got out of hand recently and I wish I didnt even go into that issue in the first place. Priorities man, I need that. RIght now, I cared for other's priorities than for mine. Which I realise is a mistake. I have to be stronger to handle these problems. But knowing me, Ill just run away from it and let it bloat till it burst.

And then Ill blog again about another bad issue thats wrong with me. Haiz.