Rainy day

God must have known how i felt today to make the weather so gloomy. The dark clouds were always negative. And together with the heavy rain made the whole area around me a sad place to be around. I felt exactly that too lately. Ive forgotten how to stay positive.Where's cheerful side of me. In a desperate attempt to get out of this shithole, Ive been doing things that are so not me. And still, im stuck. Ive never found life this cruel. Only now. Which is wrong, cuz its not me to think like that. I want my old self back who forgets about problems and take life head on. I wan the self who is full of energy back. i wan the self who is focused in life. I wan the old me back.

And sorry to xiaobao about today. You noe i dun mean it =(