Im back!

After so long of not accessing my blog, i finally have the courage to do so. Ya, it probably may not be due to laziness or bochapness or fuck careness or whatever it is along that line, but its probably due to fear. Yeah fear. Blogging is something you write online, as in a virtual diary, so many personal things are bound to be written in it. I did a good job initially but as im reading more more of my posts lately, it's gotten more personal and its not what i intended to do. But anyhow, ill jus gonna start writing things about my life and what not. I guess after not bloggin for so long, people have lose the interest to read my blog, which is kinda good, so accidental personal things can be written here, and it can be bad as well, cuz every blog wants its own group of viewership.

So what have been happening to me in life after the last post. I ended my prcp with some stupid results which wasnt justified. As usual, the ranting wiill start all over again in every post. lol. nothing new. Crappy result and crappy mood the subsequent days to boot. Was having fever for three weeks. Initially tot it was TB due to bad cough, then suspected it was denggue due to bleeding gums and my mum tot it was a voodoo spell from the aborigines in Indonesia that had been casted on me whihc brought me to that condition. i was going out and tried to have fun during that period. I was ok after the three weeks and dispelled the voodoo suspicion that got my mum all worried.

Later on I had waves and waves of mood fluctuations. Ya, matters of the heart. And it sucks. It was good while it lasted though. Like the band nazareh says, "love hurts, love scars, love wounds, and mars" And no, mars here doesnt mean the red planet. Things got for the worse. I could just stay home and played dota all day long. Going out once in a while, though with a heavy heart. No mood whatsoever for interaction. Luckily it was just for a while and i started to become normal again. And im pro in dota now! HOLY SHIT!

As time went by, my contacts with my friends got lesser and lesser, comes with the dejavu feelings that i had in my previous school years. But it was nice that there are still some people who are still in contact with me and i totally appreciate that. there are some whom i could click and gel well with are lost into oblivion. Its saddening for me knowing what a sentimental freak i am, but thats how it works for me. Change is the only permanent thing in life.

During the hols ive been gyming a lot too. Not to burn the fats but actually to increase weight. To put on the muscles. Its hard, cuz i had to eat a lot too in order to maintain the muscles so right now i dunno how i look, like a piece of lard or a piece of lard with biceps. Its not going on well but at least i enjoy going to the gym and challenging myself to carry heavy weights the next time i go there.

When u think that life is suddenly getting better, real working life is just in front of you and staring at ur face! Damn..and while typing this, im having the fever, the exact same fever that i had for three weeks. Time to use the holy water to rid the voodoo spells. ;/