Stressed

Stress is catching up on me. Just look at my current state. Eyebags, poor skin turgor, hair falling off, worse metabolism rate, pain in the left ball and many many more. As I age, I think my brain is wrinkled too. Im starting to think about events in the long run, and not the superficial ones that happen tommorow like whether xiaobao likes the ring and chain set I bought him the other time. Im thinking whether I may be able to survive the future, how well I cope with my future job,how I will make my parents happy and lead them a good life, my current health leading to my future one, and others. No more making mistakes like I did last time. If I did, consequnces will be bad. Very very bad. And this project is taking a toll on me as well. Like I said before, I dun wanna give a damn about all these projects, if they wanna excrete on it, I give them a toilet bowl, but at the end of it, I still mind and I care for the people that do just as hard as me in putting their effort in the projects. So I guess it's not fair that Im being selfish. But still, whatever...

I guess it's not just projects thats adding to the stress. Forging better relationships with certain people also play a part now. Be it with my parents, my friends, my "chosen" ones, my xiaobao I think it's gone bad. I think Ive changed to a new person. A someone whom people cannot tolerate with. I dunno, but its stresful. Or maybe the facade that Im giving people the impression with that is intoleratable. Maybe I should just think less and enjoy life the way it is.

Anyway, Im really really really glad that Ilah brought up the topic that has been bugging me the past few days. It totally cleared up my mind about some things. Thanks a lot man. A side of her that Ive never seen. Cuz she usually talks about boysfirsttime and teensneedcash. =)

And I bought new shoes today..yay..guys need their doses of retail therapy too. Not only girls and gays.I hope I dun look girly or gay when I wear them tommorow.

And guess what..NO VULGARITIES in my entry..for once. WOOOO

Yeah!

FUCK YEAH!oops