Stepping into unknown territories. That scares me a lot. Things that are new to me will make me nervous and shit in the pants. From the outside, I look like Im ready for action. But deep inside, im as soft as my ward sissy staff nurse.Maybe Im too conventional and follow the law too much. It sucks and it has screwed most part of my life. Maybe once in a while I should just lay back and let whatever challenge come to me and face it like a man with a huge doink doink. I guess Im scared of failure and it will hurt me a lot. I should change that mindset and should not give a shit what people say. Just be yourself, and face the world the way you are, like they say. But if being yourself is fucked up beyond recognition, dont you think you should change? But then, by changing, you have just made yourself into those conventional and law following people. And that is kinda screwed up, cuz its just not you. Fuck man, I hope everything turn out well in anything I do.
