Done with NR for this year!

This term's NR isnt half as bad compared to last term. The last time was so bad I slept 2 hours a day. Whats worse, I got marks that didnt justify the efforts put in. And I owe a lot now to SK. Without her, I think our group's NR was gonna get so screwed up, especially now that I understood lesser compared to the previous project. About the rest, it's not that I didnt wanna tell, but each time I asked for a discussion, at least two people couldnt make it, some with fucked up reasons and then make a big hoo haa about it, while I sacrificed other important things, which I wouldnt wanna say here, just for the discussion. Even during discussion, things arent productive. People come for the sake of it. Its wasting time. And while we are all there, people would keep saying they dunno this, dunno that. Guess what, I myself is a blurfuck in this project and I whine and whine like a whore, but I tried my best putting in the effort, maybe not as so as SK, but I guess trying to do your best helps. A lot. And Im better working with people with initiative. Not ones who will sigh and sigh and sigh when instructions are given. Sure, I can delegate jobs for them and finish their jobs, but thing is, I myself can find info on lazy just-do-for-the-sake-of-doing piece of shitty trash in the internet. I myself can type a keyword in google and dump everything to someone. Therefore whats the point of delegating jobs when in the end you are the one who gonna change everything again. Its really really hard that the ones you are critisizing are your very own close friends. Wanna tell them in the face, it will make a very awkward environment, not telling them and you yourself are so pissed off your can rip off liffong's jeans with one hand. Aniway all these shit that I say arent targetted to specific persons, just a general comment. But me being me, Ill just swollow the pain and take the chill pill. Maybe I prioritise friends too much over my own feelings. And those who were angry(with ones with conscience) with me just now, please think how I feel before feeling that way. and they cant just go on blaming me for not my actions. Most didnt even bother. they have something called "life" while I dun which is why I have to get myself concerned and stuck with the stupid project. Like wtf, making me feel so guilty just now when it is suppose to be the opposite. I need to get all this fucked up feelings off my chest,and the best way is through blogging, since I don't own a dog and phyciatrists cost a bomb.

Oh well, at least I dun see Sk complaining, and my hats off to her. And its the end ofNR. So I should stop grumbling now and look forward for tommorow.

And I realise I get sick if Im stressed. SO GIRLY!