Damned throat

i havent quit blogging i realise since im writing it now. Tonsils are killing me. Damn bacteria. Doc advised me to cut them out, but Im scared, and the money used isnt cheap. and I may not eat anymore. And I might as well die. Hence, I figured i shouldnt go for the op and continue living on antibiotics. but what if the bacteria goes to the kidneys and I may get glumerulonephritis and what not?Either way,ill still die. Imaginations aside, this lump of mass in my throat is irritating the hell out of me. its as if theres something long and huge right in the middle of the throat. worse, food that I eat sometimes may get collected in the crevices of the mass and it feels even more bulging. Intubate me pls anyone. Sometimes when i spit out leftover kai lan and the skin of tomatoes may come out from my mouth. i guess I have to get used to this. So anyone who piss me off shall get the kang kong from hell.

This week is a very stressful week. Meetings for projects are like a norm. if im not sick today i had to go for another project meeting. I noe god loves me and he wanted me to rest and hence he gave a cute little bacterium to stick into my tonsils.Greatly appreciate it. I dunno how Im gonna study for my nsl. Study hard results farked up. Never study hard, still as farked up. I sometimes dunno y the hell im in this course, when i think i can do better in areas of my field, like maths and sleeping in my bedroom. I think ive done a great sin in my past life, maybe breaking too many girl's heart, that i got this deserving destiny. LOL. karma, karma. But its ok, im still loving it i guess. Still positive. Let me see when exam resuts come out and whether ill be crying like a baby. i guess whining should stop here and proceed with my studying. Haiz.